A guide to your responsibilities as an HIV positive individual.
Being diagnosed with HIV can be the most terrifying, stressful, anxious, depressing moment of your life, but that doesn’t mean you get to stop being an adult.
Imagine how you feel, or felt, when you were told the news. Do you think anyone would want to feel that? Absolutely not! And I, for one, wouldn’t wish it on anybody.
Once you wrap your head around that fact that your life isn’t over, you need to contact the people you have had any sexual contact with. I don’t care if it was only oral, with a condom, or if you were dressed up as superheroes, you NEED to tell EVERYONE. Making up excuses so that you don’t have to tell people your diagnosis is a cowardly way to avoid confrontation.
There are different ways of going about it. In NY, where I was diagnosed, the health department had a guy who’s job it was to contact the people I could tell him and then I wouldn’t have to worry about it. I decided to do it personally, but I’m sure you contact the health department in your state and see if they have someone who can help.
If you decide to do it personally, like I did, be realistic. You’re going to be dealing with a lot of emotions from these people. Only one person I told actually asked me how I was doing. Every other guy was freaking out, and I understood. Just make sure you keep it to facts.
For example, “Hey there’s something I need to talk to you about. I got tested the other day and it came up positive for HIV. Please go get tested ASAP, I’ll go with you if you’d like.”
Try your hardest not to apologize. I’m pretty sure I did, but in hindsight, they don’t get an apology from me. I didn’t contract HIV on purpose, and would never wish it on anyone else. They may blow up and get really angry, that’s normal. Stay calm and give them space. Tell them how you feel too. They aren’t the only one with an overload of emotions.
When people make excuses to avoid telling people about their diagnosis, they are promoting the spread of the virus for absolutely no good reason. Find the strength inside you to deal with the situation like a responsible adult. Otherwise, you may be condemning a lot of people to hear the same news you heard.
Lest we forget to be open about our status with sexual partners henceforth. Condom or no condom, undetectable or not, TELL THEM BEFORE YOU HAVE SEX. Honestly, it won’t change your sex and/or dating life THAT much. With some education, a lot of negative guys are ok with sleeping with and having relationships with positive men. If they don’t understand and are afraid of it, or judge you based on your status, then honey, they weren’t worth it anyway.
Make sure you know who you’re having sex with. Don’t just assume that because they know your status that it doesn’t matter who you sleep with. Ask them too. People don’t like to ask questions and I don’t get it. If I’m going to sleep with a positive man, there are some things I want to know. What medicine is he taking? Does he seem like he’s a very heavy drinker or drug user? I tend not to trust that men who are alcoholics or drug addicts will take their medicine regularly, and therefore are putting me at risk for a strain of HIV that may be resistant to a certain drug, worst case scenario, MINE. If you just want to have sex without all of the investigation, I suppose your best bet is to just make sure there is a condom involved.
Well that covers my rant for the day 🙂
Have a lovely April, folks! ❤
Vegan Dan 🌱